Dont know what to say.....

The past few days have been a bit weird.... I am really learning a lot of stuff in my quiet time and am stuck because I feel as though Im not putting it into action. This is a very scary thing! AHH. I have been praying for some time for the Lord to help me deal with relationships in my life and He is TRULY at work. It is just not 'dating' relationships either. It has a lot to do with my friendships and with my father. There are so many days that I just dont want to come home to deal with the thoughts that register through my mind about him.....its so draining. I want to be the light in the darkness to those who are closest to me....Aja and Wendy. Part of my feels as though I am not being a good example if I am struggling in these relationships. These thoughts have really just been thrown out there.....so take them for what they are I guess :) Tomorrow is going to be an exciting one though... Me and a few other woman are getting together for girl time.....Im pumped!! I pray God would tear down walls and build us up in Him!